so i am a little overwhelmed with all that is currently on my plate as a qpoc who is mostly being consumed by job and health issues but i am hoping to respond to all of the valid critiques of the goddesses shirt and my photoshopped image of willow smith as well as the not so accurate comments about my identity and experiences that i have received today. i am not disconnected from these conversations and entered the project of the shirt with the foremost intentions of inciting helpful dialogue. while i have learned from past experiences that tumblr is not exactly conducive to conversations where good communication actually takes place, i want to be accountable to all of the ways that i have messed up in going forth with the different ways i have been realizing my vision as an artist. there are always going to be new ways that an idea can be expanded and thought over and i am grateful for all of the knowledge that this project has generated. it is a little stressful to have people whom i’ve never met try and define my work by my online presence and what they perceive my identity to be like but i am hoping to provide a better look at what my intentionality is as soon as i get the opportunity.
hahahahahahaaaaaaa~ wow, really? I mean really?
I’m not sure if you could make a more sympathy mongering, bay area bullshit ally, recasting yourself as the ~just wants to be accountable~ victim post if you tried.
“overwhelmed by everything on my plate” ( You say in response to being called out by an unemployed homeless trans woman of color. must be hard being faux poor and trying to get to NYC colleges :’( )
“as a qpoc” (newsflash: thats everyone your talking to, idiot. But, its cool, you deserve sympathy more.)
“my identity and experiences” (this is trans cafab bullshit speak for “i can do or say whatever i want and take up space in womens and trans communities and redefine myself as whatever is most socially useful to me in the moment so no one can make me accountable to anything I’ve done or said b/c I’m always not what you say I am and no analysis encompases me especially not anything that plenty of TWOC have been analyzing and speaking about on our manipulative as fuck ways that always ultimately harms trans women of color.”)
“ intentions of inciting helpful dialogue” (I live in the bay area and can weasel my way out of anything making me uncomfortable by reframing everything to be about ”intentions” and ”help” and ”dialogue”)
“learned from past experiences that tumblr is not exactly conducive to conversations where good communication actually takes place” (Why is no one making good communication with me? Dont they see how I’m representing myself to be the good person in a sea of bad communicators who all happen to be calling me on my shit? Do they exspect me to listen when there not even coddling me or my bullshit excuses for myself and the dynamics I carelessly engage in? Do they really exspect me to be accountable for anti-blackness and transmisogyny when I have a real cunt??? Countdown to counter-call-out starts now.)
“i want to be accountable to all of the ways that i have messed up in going forth with the different ways i have been realizing my vision as an artist.” (I have no intention of being accountable for anything whatsoever and this is not about me its about my art, and you better make sure we keep the focus there. Also, this is about “my visions as an artist” not in anyway about how my ”art” is bringing in money for me, not at all. I’m going to continue heroically forward with by vision of making money, despite you h8rs on my art.)
“i am grateful for all of the knowledge that this project has generated.” (bay area faux acknowledgement time! I hope this makes up for how I’ve been preemptively shifting the focus, removing blame, gathering sympathy and discrediting everything said and ignoring how people have already called me on this b4 and i didn’t do shit but be smug and self-righteous … till it became and internet shit storm… by saying i’m grateful for ‘the knowledge that this project has generated’ implicitly making my work ultimately good. I’m so glad my work has helped make me a better person as i discredit everyone who critiques me. Thanks for helping me grow~~~~~)
“it is a little stressful to have people whom i’ve never met try and define my work by my online presence and what they perceive my identity to be like”
This has so much bullshit in it its tricky to deconstruct.
Why do you assume anyone calling you has never met you? Can’t even go to Ships without seeing you and an entourage fallowing you around- its hard not to know you. I’ve met you like, 8 times at least.
If someone hasn’t met you they cant criticize your anti-blackness and transmisogyny…why exactly? That doesn’t make any fucking sense— your reframing everything about this solely to benefit yourself and your image. This is as insincere as you can get. No one needs to know you in person to know this shit about you. But sure, its b/c once they get to know you they will realize… your cafab? non-black? not from the hood? claim trans identities then leave them at your convenience? butch presenting but with lipstick?
Oh but whoops it doesnt matter b/c almost everyone writing has met you more than once and everyone knows you. So. Nope. Your full of manipulation games, but actually, your nothing but bullshit, ego, and bay area fauxpology evasion.
hahahahaha. go to hell.